It wasa blind winter night when she headed off written on her head was failure to conform..

So, one big thing i forgot, Exeter. :F The reason for the Star Wars tee which i am proud of (talking of tee, i'm just going to go and make one, i shall return) and my red/pinky/orangey beret which i LOVE. :) and apparently Tom did text me my phones just being a bitch along with MSN and what appears to be my only communication with the outside world or anyone who isn't within shouting distance. (Which atm sadly is noone) And now my keyboard is screwing up. (computer)
So, i guess I'm not good with electical stuff i mean my phone, my computer keyboard, my musical keyboard, msn, my ipod, my camera... GEEZ serously, sort yourself out. I'm home alone with werthers originals trying to think of what i am gonna do on halloween, because Maddy (if you happen to read this) you can stay round tmo night and it's either someone (anyone)stays round and we attend one of the many events we've been invited to (or several if we're skilled) or i'ma go up to Totnes on the train and spend halloween mit miener bruter (brother),vater und step mutter. :) So, it's a win - win situation whatever i decide to do as i have many options but penultimately i want to work (coursework)/revise and spend time with family if i'm honest, so we'll see how it goes. :)
S, Malfunctions, sweet treats and my fair share of 'The Doctor'. :)

Papa-paparazzi...

This has been the soundtrack of my stay at Maddys. :)
So yeah, obv feeling better.:) we made brownies, did ALOT of art from 10.45 until 3 in the morning.. :S lets just say the 'muse' was flowing, and no Archie, not the band. :F
Yeah, it's been good, except a few minor (well...) issues, but they're sorted now. :)
anyways, i feel like a bit of a geek. In a good way of course. :) Why i hear you cry, because I'm watching Dr who not just Dr who, i'm watching it on Iplayer whilst wearing a Star Wars t-shirt after some revision after Maddy's house. :) I feel fulfilled. Anyways, if i'm not pre-occupied and your lucky maybe another blog in a bit. If anyone actually reads these... :S I was hoping in seeing Tom earlier but he doesn't seem to be replying so... kinda sucks. :/ My phone isn't sending texts either though. :/
Maddy. :) I love you. :) You are fabulous and i can't believe it's been 5 years. I am so comfortable around you, and though i hate to admit it (:F) your marvellous. :D
S, Gaga, Gaudi and Gallons of paint. :)Oh and not to mention moaning turtles, Hayley and rick rolling. ;)

...

So, apparently i'm ill. (Y)
Been feeling tres ill since last night was sick twice but i'm feeling kinda better now but TOM GET WELL SOON. :) I miss you.
So much for going to Maddys tonight. :/ I'm really annoyed about this as it would have been good. :/
Anyways, i'm watching FlashForward and i know my priorities. :)
Oh and btw i'v restarted my diary/big black book which i started in April as i prefer having something physical to hold. :)
S. Stomach bugs, flash forwards and failed plans. (Y)

See the lights above you glowing and breathe it deep into your lungs

Title? Missy Higgins - steer. <3
So, today apparently not going to Maddy's today. :/ instead me and Ash are going round tommorow night which should be good. :)
So, been listening to Missy Higgins alot recently. :) (L) I'm doing some art prep on Hundertwasser but sem to be forgetting about Antoni Gaudi... which kinda sucks. If anyone has any ideas, that would be nice PLEASE let me know, as i don't have much time, i have a few ideas but i need to purchase some stuff for them. :)
I feel slightly sick, and my keyboard is not working for some reason and i'v forgotten howto re-string my elec. guitar which is annoying as i feel very 'musical' today so i can only sing...
I have decided to redo myenglish original writing as i really don't like it and piece by piece i'm ging to re-do my English coursework to get higher grades as i only have B's but I'm glad i have A's for my oral assessments. :)
I'm also doing ALOT of art prep and finishing coursework but i forgot my self portrait work from my folder which i was going to go over... (N)
I'v just remeberd the French song aswell haha. I'll be learning that some more too. Haha, and i forgot to pick up my textiles folder which is NOT helpful! But i have ALOT of revision/coursework to get done this half term and then the gig or Jesse's party to go to on Halloween and then Kath's birthday meal on Sunday night. :) I can't wait. :) and Tim's supposed to be having his sleepover so we'll see if that happens. :) I texted Jack Sparrow (aka Hannah) last night as she is in Italy due to a guitar thing with a few others and she's having fun haha but she took her art prep with her which is annoying but hey! You gotta do what you gotta do haha. Me and dad were planning on taking some photos for my art prep on natural forms and architecture and stuff but the weather isn't looking too good but we'll see what happens. :)I got a letter about my late returned library books. :S Whoops but i'll go give them back today haha. :)
We're appplying for college in one/two weeks now which i find quite scary tbh. I mean, COLLEGE seriously! I still feel like i depend alot on the school and the system there as in the pre planned timetables and planned out days whereas at college it'll be so much more independent. Well life goes on. :) I can't wait to get away from the minority of stuid, bland people so... :)
May blog later.
S. Revision, coursework and half term plans. :)

Buggershoes...

Title? An un-allowed quote from the most infamous Toby. Haha.
So, tommorow is the first official day of half term. :) So, this weekends been fabulous i must say. :) 'I know right?' :F
So, Friday night i went round to Tom's and slept round, we played alot of xbox (rock band) and sadly, Tom never did get to teach me how to play Halo haha, we also watched a lot of films/TV includng monsters inc and we watched QI with Stephen Fry. (L) Then the following morning played Wii for a while before heading into town for Matt's birthday pizza hutting i feel i should kinda dedicate this blog to him and Tom just because i have spent the whole weekend with him. :) and then after pizza hut with our very mature hats and a failsome ice cream factory experience and some very attractive photographs we went to the park for awhile then me Tom and Nickie went back Tims to watch 'Saving private Ryan' and for someone who doesn't like war films i did enjoy that, sadly Nickie and Tim wern't really concentrating on that though. :F And then me and Tom ended up staying over... It was good. :)
Then i got A lift home with Tom and gt back at 12 did some art homework and had to help look after Toby and Ava as dad had a bad back and Ellie had gone to hospital as she broke her arm. We went to Wetherspoon which was nice except Toby was acting up.
Then i came back and i'm still doing art prep for the mock exam after half term. I still havn't purchased a black dress for Lucy's party... :S i'll sort it out. :)
S. Chicken, sleepovers and Hundertwasser.
P.S i have quite a few ideas for photo shoots it's just getting the locayions, the props and borrowing fathers equipment. So fingers crossed it should happen. :) And i'm currently (well, editing this post at 21.04) learning this French song called Ta Douleur - Camille as i want a solo part in the christmas concert or the centinary show or whichever one it is haha, but yeah. :) It's a bit random but fun all the same. :)

And i think to myself, what a wonderful world.

So, this week appears to be dragging a fair amount but hey!! Half term next week and non uniform, me and Hly are still debating on whether to go to school on friday as Bella and Hermione and have an epic showdown wearing t-shirts saying 'Bite me' and 'I (L) the chosen one' HAHA or wheres Waldo an his dog, pacman and Ghosts, Mario and Wario/luigi or Rock paper ad scissors!! Epic showdown!!HAHA. :) We also want to get loads of our year to dress up as people from Grease and sing summer lovin' in the chritmas concert.... SKILL. HAHA. :) I love school for this reason! But then i can't wait for college! The other day i had the idea that on the last day of school we could dress up as the good and bad characters from narnia (with someoe as a wardrobe) and have a fight on the astro... FOR NARNIA. HAHAHA. God, i love life. :)
I have learnt i can not learn the words to french songs... at all.
But last night was fun! Tom turned up unexpectedly at my door with a cardboard chefs hat on shouting 'Chippy chips' or whatever he was saying then later on decided to remove the hat that he previously put on my bunny rabbit and replace it with his chefs hat haha!!! Best Boyfriend ever, he's going places i'm telling you! I seem to be obsessed with Mango atm, i have mango body butter, moisturiser, soap, lip butter and spray. And i am so pleased that i found my gameboy advance, pokemon games, knitted mittens my grandma made in pink rabbits, frogs (stereotypically green of course) and mice. My grandma is AWESOME, i also found the DVD of me singing as Alice in Alice in wonderland the musical in year 6 along with many classmates of mine... AHA, epic embarrassment win! :D As soon as possible i plan on plstering this all over youtube. :)
I'm out for now, Pokemon, 90's kid and WAIT i swear i'v written about this...?

'I wish i had indents in my chest so we would slot together like a puzzle...'

:) I love you Tom, and i am here if you ever want to talk or anything, and i'll be here for you no matter what.
You mean the world to me you know, everything, thanks.
S. Love, Kisses and yellow cars...

Sind Blitze sind Donner in volken ver schwunden.

So, it's been awhile but... Last night was St Matthew Passion the performance at the cathedral. I am telling you, it was AMAZING. :) Such a thrill and a priveledge to be in something like that... it's amazing! But yeah, it was soo good and after the rehersal headed to Mcd's and M&S for percy pigs and juice. :) Chicken sack wraps are srprisingly good for Mcd's food. Haha. But we wee so drained this morning! Me and Maddy got up at 10 had a shower, burnt the hot cross buns, had hot cocolate in a cafe and then headed to school at lunch haha. It's a long story... but yeah. :)
Anyways, i really don't have time to blog, well, i just cba. :)
S. German Choral, Hot chocolate and Miss Markham.. HAHA M know what i'm saying. ;)
x

He who foresees calamity experiences it twice.

A quote from 'Flash Forward'
Don't you just LOVE it when you don't thnk your tired, your head touches the pillow and your asleep? Anyways, recently i've been feeling really tired i dunno why that is? but yeah. So, this moning woke up at 10 and some Jehovas witnesses knocked n the door and gave me some magazines! :| Scared much? Then i had to get down to the post ofice to get my parcel. So i got dow there at 11.45 (bearing in mind it shuts at 12) asked if i could have it, and she said i needed ID. So i had to go home and get some which was TRES annoying but yeah. But that was probably the most interesting thing that happened to me today. Haha. So i was meant to be going out, then didn't etc etc. But i watched 'Flash Forward' and it was SO goood. :) Seriously,tanks Hly for remindng me. ;) I watched Emma aswell the other day which i must say is FABULOUS, i need to read the book! But yeah, Oh and i also found out that i can't go and stay with Alice in Yorkshire which is annoying. And i think i'm getting fatter... which isn't so good!
S. The future, Monster Munch and College Humour.

The subtle calm of headphone silence.

So, I'm restless, bored, tired, and all round odd. I can't keep still for Christ's sake. And I've set my alarm for half 9 tmo so i can get up fresh and early. I think i may try and go to sleep in a minute, i just felt like i had to blog just to relax a bit more and get my thoughts flowing even though I'm not spilling them into here, I'll be spilling them no my black book. Yes, I've resorted back to my big black book again. To spill and convert my thoughts onto paper to r-read and reminisce.
Thats it for tonight.
S. Texts, The 'Tube and twinkles.

just lay it all down, put your face to my neck and let it all fall out.

Title? Missy Higgins - Nightminds. I am literally intrigued by her atm, she is such raw talent (in my opinion) and she has such great lyrics.

Just a little rant. Doesn't it just annoy you when ignorant, naive people are quite often a big deal.. i mean, why can't people just slow down and sort out they're priorities, school, real friends, trying to make something of your life instead of dropping people whenever you've moved on and wasting time trying to be more and more popular each day,settle i wit a nice group of people you feel comfortable with and make other friends but don't constantly drop people for someone 'cooler'. I just makes me angry why people can't see though this, the fact that this person is only looking our for themselves, and how they will be nowhere in 5 years and in 20 years they'll be stuck in a dead end job with a second best life because of the way they've acted throughout their life and how people will realise this and just wont bother. Ignorance is not knowledge or bliss. Just, get over yourself. It'll will be better for some people in the long run. :)
Back to the blog. :)
Today has been FAB, English was fab! And maths was bearable. Then we had our... God I've forgotten the word!! Basically the second to last rehearsal for St Matthews Passion on Thursday! I can't wait. :) And then after that we had house matches! Netball, so i now LOVE netball!! :) And I'm not THAT bad at it i guess. :S But i'm not good at it either... then it started to rain, walked home with Tom which was enjoyable, i miss him epecially much tonight for some reason? Maybe it's 'cos i'm feeling kind of relaxed but kind of on edge? But yeah, Dad and Ellie are back together which is good, lng sstory it wasn't anyones fault they broke up and they both knew it was a mistake so.. yeah. :) Thats good at least! I have a cld cup if tea an a half eaten bowl of weetabix next to me as i had hot milk and weetabix as it reminds me of when i was younger. So i boiled some milk on the hob and realised that i had made too much, bu only when i had alreadu put it in the bowl, so i had to equalise the ratio of milk:weetabix y adding 5 weetabix... :| just a little advice to anyone who is thinking of doing so: DON'T! 'Co 'It makes me QUEEEEEASAY! It makes me Queasayyyy, you got a face like a gecko...' etc HAHA! You know what i'm talking about Tom... Haha. :D
S. Geckos, weetabix and Ambrosia.

Relax, Relax, excel and breathe you are my gravity...

Title? Tired and Uninspired - My American Heart.
I realised it's slowly turning from warm summer days to crisp, cold winters mornings, it was bitterly cold this morning as i stepped out of my house, without a scarf (as school doesn't permit it, along with coloured socks although i was layered up with a cardigan and coat.) And i realised how i love winter/autumn! Seeing your breath in the air, wrapping up warm, having an excuse to wear mittens and a thermos of tea/hot chocolate. FAB! :) But winter clothing always bothers me, as i never have the right stuff, or it doesn't go together and by the time i'v actually bothered to buy it the years gne full circle and it's summer again...

...Back from another fabulous night with my more than fabulous BoyFriend/BestFriend. :)
As usual another enjoyable night was had by all. :) It was his mums birthday, so we had chinese. ;) For the first time in my life!! I feel so comfortable there, and as we headed through the shadow filled, cloudless night, i gazed at the stars thinking about how lucky i am. Truly lucky to have such a guy. Such a guy with the most MARVELLLOUS shoes i must say! :) But really. You are the best. :)
I love you. I say it too much, but it never loses any meaning each time just gains it. :)
The moon is tres odd tonight as well? Odd colour, seems realy big and stuff. Hmm, and btw Kath if you ever possibly read this, get well soon you pig loving asian. :)
S. Stars, scarves and egg allergys.

These hands will not be taught to hold anothers, we're the special two.

Missy Higgins - special two. I LOVE Missy Higgins atm.
Tonight was fabulous, i love spending time with Tom, it just makes me feel so, apprciated? Happy, makes me realise again, how amazing he is. He makes me feel warm and happy inside, thank you, for being you, i know i talk about him alot, but it's because he is a big part of my life, i don't care if i sound kinda... wierd it's true. Everytime i'm with him, i never want to let go. When we have to go, i hate it, i miss him when i turn away to leave. Is that wierd? Well anyway, thanks for a fab night, i love you.
S. Youtube, Textless Phones and birthdays...

I like your face, it's so nice to look at...

Title? A quote from Tom today whilst we were standing in the square. Haha, i take this as a compliment of course haha. :) Isn't it funny how you become so much closer to a person and understand them better when you've had an argument? It's because you don't seem to properly appreciate them until there so close to slipping away from you? I find this an odd conception.
I'v just remembered i said i'd do a weekly WTF thing? Well i kind of forgot, so this weeks is a quote from Mrs Aliberti to accompany her chair thrusts and hungry trousers.. 'God, have a little respect for the FOREST will you!?' This was a hilarious moment in French lesson today. I explained to Alex, Conor, Beth, Katy, John and several others about Mrs odd chair thrusting, hungr trousers incidents OH and of course her 'Technicolour dreamcoat' as we like to call it ay? ;) HAHA. Too bad tday she was wearing a skirt... haha, well, i guess it's better for all of us! But not the same 'lesbian clothes' HAHA, it's always the quiet ones!! :) Amazing! HAHA, you are funny kids...
Me and Tom and our little 'romantic' scene in the rain haha, I LOOK SO UNNATRACTIVE IN THE RAIN i really do, i mean, unnatractive!
But anyways, love youuuu. And the online community (as i like to call them) OH and if your reading (HLy/Beth) HALLO SEXY LADIES. :F ;)
S. KitKat's, Biology tests and kisses in the rain.. :F

Jealousy, Fact or fallacy?

Hey... again. I can't concentrate as in REALLY cannot concentrate. I'm in one of those restless moods, and i keep thinking about stuff, and was thinking, paranoia, don't you hate it? Jealousy and paranoia, the thing is, no matter how much you try and ignore it, it's physically not possible. All those niggling little doubts which every now and then people top up for you, unintentionally most of the time but.. Just thought i'd say, lot on my mind atm. Whenever things are going right, do you ever feel like something has to go wrong soon? And that your luck will run out, in whatever kind of way,family, friends etc. Clinging to paranoia. Oh well, coursework calls...
S.

How comforting the privacy of the mind can be.

Title? Eve 6 - How much longer. A song just linked to me by Tom, i likeee. :) I liked these lyrics although in the song it comes across as 'Sickening' the privacy of te mind but i prefer the more optimistic view on it.
Today the school day was not a nice one particularly, i was just in a wierd mood. But after school was good, me, Maddy, Beth, Kath, HLy, Bex and Katy headed off to Costa as we're cool as me M and Brown had some time to waste before St Matty Ps which was at school today at 5.15 until 7. So we had a few hilarious chats, especially me HLy and Brown. 'Hallo sexy lady/ies' HAHA. goodtimes... and in Costa we purchased hot chocolates (which the marshmallows got stolen off of), then when everybody had dispersed me, M and BB still had 3/4's of an hour to spare so... after staying in Costa for another half hour we headed to Iceland and bought some fatty food. :) Good times! We then headed towards the grass near he library, sat by the wall and talked and ate. :) I love you guys. Then came the dreaded rehearsal... It was ok but... seriously it's next Thurs the rehearsal!! Hannah's missed allot though. :S (N)

Just a few thoughts, Love is so fulfilling, it's the best feeling anyone could EVER have, but when it's over, the lonliest and most painful feeling possible, dad was explaining why him and Ellie broke up and he is NOT happy. :/

CBA to blog now, i have Chem, Bio and Maths to do so CIAO.
S. Vimto, boxes of raisins and music scores.

Be careful what you wish for 'cos you just might get it.

Title? Mayday parade - When i grow up (cover)
So... Had a great time with Tom, embarassed myelf a few times as usual, subway, generally, you kno the drill. I miss him. I hav jut completed my French homework after asking Nickie several hundre times as i had written a TRES vague description... Yes Nickie, she truly MURDERS the language but hey. Stephen Fry is AMAZING. :) I mean, what a fab guy! And George Orwell amazing writer but complete hipocrite, i'm not going into it again, just ask Kath haha, i explained it enough to her! HAHA. I love musicnd Books, the river, Tom and having the time to relax instead of constantly thinking about c/w or homework or grades or exams etc.
Anyways, just a quick update, St Matty P's tmo, i have been practicing on cyberbass... ;) I'm now off to relax with a nice cup of tea, my Ipod and my nice, warm, double duvet'd bed!
Goodnight i'll leave you with a few quick thoughts... Pokemon, Stephen Fry, ear stretches and SubWay. :D I LOVE YOU TOM. Even if your old phones don't text!
S.

Medium Vanilla Frescato..

So, today's been kinda the opposite to pro-active (N) as i'm kinda supposed to ursework and stuff, but i must say i am revising! :) But yeah , went out with dad earlier as we hrdly hang out anymore, so we went to Costa (hense the title) and yeah, it was good, we had a chat and stuff. I need some superglue. I took a few picturs and dad has just given me an entry form for the Photography competition entitled 'My Barnstaple' for under 16's and the winner gets a digital camera amongst other stuff, which is good because as we all know my camera has broken! (N)
Tom should be getting back soon :) so we are going to go out i think. :)
Oh, i looked for a black dress with Maddy yesterday and found one i like but i'm not too sure about it but i think thats probably the one i'm going with... unless of course Maddy buys it... (N)
I'm currenty on youtube and hae just recieved an email from Pennie and i'm kinda confused as to what 'Morning time tbc' is... :S anyone have any ideas?
Can't wait though for St Matty P's. :) Except for the facti really do have a cold! And it's not attractive and i can't talk properly now. :@
Anyways, coursework calls. :/ So, speak later guyssss. :)
Cotton wool, mathematics sets and cheesestring. ;)
S.

My Heart WILL wait for You...

Title? A song i was listening to in the car on the way back into Barnstaple which i love and found very relevant, alot of songs make me think when i'm in an odd mood?

I have a cold,a sore throat, i miss Tom, i can't find the right coloured nail varnish, my light still doesn't work, i have homework (and housework) to do tommorow, i can't text, it's way too hot, i'v been so bored and my laptop and phone are being stupid tonight. Various keys (well all of them)are jumbled up and such, i think I'm cursed with technology so no grammar tonight (Ok, well that was a lie as it's fixed now due to my skill.) So, been in an odd mood this weekend i mean i really don't know whats going on atm in general, i was in such a bad mood Friday up until i went to Maddy's it all seemed fine until i was on my own or we were trying to go to sleep or whatever id just keep thinking about it but we had a good night and this morning was good too. I'm glad we were texting and stuff or else we would have just left it me and Maddy went to the market i bought some vinyl records :) which are good and in mint condition (Y) skilled pick by me, then i had a really good rest of the day too :) it was nice, it really was fab, just what i needed tbh. I definitely take what we have together for granted i don't like that, not at all but at least we have passion in the relationship, and actually care enough to mention it instead of just being together for the hell of it you know. But he makes me smile, CONSTANTLY, i love him and i wish he knew how much. I have just sorted out the grammar/caps lock problem!! :)(but to be quite honest i can't be bothered to correct the rest of it. :F) (Ok, thats another lie, as i did, most of it anyways) i can't be bothered with blogging in general atm, I'd rather be spending my time in more pro-active/fulfilling ways i.e Work or Tom or just relaxing instead of blogging, especially when i have nothing of importance to say, i just waned to write this, even if i don't post it, i need to just write it down, I'll probs edit if I'm posting...?
Sadie, Percy Pigs, Plum Jam and PG Tips.
P.S 3 bean wraps, Percy piglets and cloudy lemonade from M&S are amazing btw, definitely cheers you up. :) Our little picnic earlier was fabulous! :) and I've realised why we think and say the same things... it's because the phone greets me with 'Hi Tom :)' every time i turn it on, so i think my brain has re-programmed perhaps? And before you go, listen to Mayday Parade - When i grow up, i am now addicted to it (Tom, i owe that to you thanks! :F) I am publishing now. :)

TITTYLICKINGFUN.

LOL! This is todays blog. You may think the title is odd, but it stared from a conversation about various things… so we carried it n and it was HILARIOUS i swear i almost wet myself… Maddy, legend. Haha. You say PENIS, i say TITTIES, PENIS has titties it's a titty licking fetish.

But yeah, todays been alright! St Matty P today period 6 i had art which i’v found out i got a B so far and thats without her having marked my two sketchbooks which are continuous A*’s so i’m hoping for a FAB grade! Haha. Afer shool and our amusing walk to te bus station with Maddy i had to go to Braunton AGAIN because miranda hadn’t posted the thing from work exp so i went to get it and Maddy went to Fremingon for hers. :F It was gooood. I had an odd lunch too full of random convo’s and groping… LOL. P.S.E was a fail as usual and we had to write the exact same information for about the 5th time on a different form in a different format! So tedious but had a FABULOUS English lesson complete with over dramaticness on my behalf and cardboard Lightsworbers (provided by me) for our remake of act 3 scene 1 of Romeo and Juliet, where Mercutio dies of course I was Mercutio Me being the dramatic actress and all… well… Haha. It was goood, sound effects and all! We got out done by the guys with ray guns though! But our acting was better so it doesn’t matter… :F it was sooo fun though! Speaking of that Ash (Tybalt, who i fought with in the play as just logged in ) HAHA. I’m in such a good mood today, i may blog more relevantly later.

S.