i think that to be pretty you have to have an appealing and attractive personality and that's what makes you attractive i.e humour, caring, happy, trustworthy etc. If you were gorgeous on the outside but manipulative and a superfical 'sheep' at heart i would think you were vain, naive and aspired to nothing but shallow, materialistic consumerism and superficial dreams.
S. :) Night.

If you want to be happy, find some way to make it happen.

Enter the cage.

The thoughts caged inside my mind, struggling to escape. Occasionally break free from my crazed, excited head. I relax for a moment and there gone, free on the wind, open to the critiscism and insults. Free to make there own way to listening ears that are ready for change.

I do believe that love means never having to say 'I love you.' but what if you want to say it, just to emphasise the point?

Apparently...

CANCER - HARD LOVER
(6/22-7/22)
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Normally not a Fighter, but will if neccessary. Someone loves them right now.

“ I feel more comfortable talking to strangers than people I know. I believe this is because, chances are, I’ll never see them ever again, and I feel like I can say anything I want. They don’t know my past or what I’ve done. They can only judge me on who they are seeing right at that second. I’m the person I am now, not then. People I know don’t see the difference. ” - http://idareyoutoclickthis.tumblr.com/ - Check it out. <3


Give and take. Live and let live. Forgive and forget.
Words we say but never mean.
When someone says frogive and forget they can't mean it! I mean, you can't forget something that made you say this in the first place, it just stiks in your mind, at the back of your mind which ever now and then,those momns of happiness decides to jump put and make you think again. And when you to forgive you always think secretly that the person isn't as close or you don't trust them, so your not genuinly whole heartedly forgiving or forgetting. But i guess it's what you show on the outside that people take note of even if secretly they're thinking the exact same and know exactly what your thinking.

So today was.. pretty shit if i'm honest. Sorry for the pointless profanity but i really didn't enjoy today that much. Tres boring, Tres unamusing, Tres pointless. Tres being HIGHLY. But afterschool Me and Maddy bought a milky way whilst waiting for the bus. :) Highlight of the day! :) I went to Tom's last night was fab! :) No xbox though sadly HAHA. And this rumour, Seriously Peaches i will attack you with a cream topped machete (Liam haha.) you and your bloody crotch revealing dresses. :F But it's just funny and as long as the people i care about know it's not true then i'm not fussed. :)
S. rain, mud and milky ways. :)

exactly one month till christmas. Better start saving ay? :)
i love christmas, family, laughter, the decorations on the trees, even the cold crisp weather as we're all inside warm and jolly and it's crisp and sparkling outside with a robin perched on the icy, wooden slats of the fence. The frost looks as delicate and intricate as lace, softly draped over every visible surface. :)
the days are shorter, the trees are bare but we have christmas to look forward to.
But one thing i'm worried about is exams!I have science exams two weeks after we get back, then the real stress and worry begins! I'll discuss more sone other time, sleep is needed.
S.

Love After Love.

The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life

Everybody, needs somebody!

:) Life is great but just one thing, don't drink alot of yazoo strawberry milkshake. :/
<3

Eurgh, i feel as if i'm not worthy atm. As though i do nothing right except make mistakes and prove myself to be a douche. I wish i could be like i used to be. Confident and carefree. No particular reason why i feel like this just lots of little ones and i'm rather hormonal atm and very stressed. A sleepover needed soon one thinks!
Chai latte's & hot baths with Radox, that'll do the trick.

i really should get tumblr.

'Everyone wants to be your sun. I don't, I want to be your moon so i can brighten up your darkest moments when your sun isn't around.'
- Iareangeline.tumblr

Go baby, go baby, go...

So, i'm now ungrounded, Tom came over earlier even if i was grounded. :S :F tenimet dad in Bostons for chai latte and a bagel we discussed my ungrounding and dad's decided i have to make a public apology on facebook to make up for it!! HAAAH.
After that we headed to the square where the Noisettes and a few shitty bands were playing. The noisettes were amazing! Really down to earth and Shinghai or however you spell it sounded like a really fab person, i'd love to like go down out with her shopping or something haha! But yeah, it was a realy good night. They came to turn on the christmas lights! She has an amazing voice!
We had candyfloss and Katy bought a huge green lightsaber for £6 which eded up being broken by a certain Asian by the end of the night was fun for a while though maha! :)
Anyways,was a good end to the weekend. Tom then came round for like 3/4's of an hour and stuff that was good. :)
More practising for i sing of a maiden tommorow which will be good. :) I havn't seen Maddy all this weekend which is unusual but we did plan to go out saturday btu of course i was grounded. But now, i'm freeeeee! :)
But i do have to write a draft analysis and colour and perfect my comic as it's not quite right yet, theres something about it... :S
Then i think i'ma write in... 'THE BIG, BLACK, BOOK!' that's right.
I shall also be having a nice relaxing hot bubble bath! :)
Toodles. S. Lights, Noisettes and a bloody good night! :) jealous of Kath!? he met the drummer on the train! <3

Itunes, tea and tumblr..

So, my second day of grounding! It sucks! I feel like i'm unde house arrest and had the worst 'monthly pains' if you get the jist! Haha. :S
So yeah, itunes, tea and tumblr has been the components of my day keeping me sane! Oh and of course MSN!But i've only been talking to one person... guess. Haha.
:) I actually ADORE tumblr in particular icanread i dareyoutoclickthis justgowithaclassic (HLy) and stillramblingon (izzy) check them out I LOVE THEM! <3 heres a few i love...




May blog again later.
S. Typography, limewire and MSN messenger.
<3

Owl city - Vanilla Twilight.

Beautiful lyrics...

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find opposing new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

S. Sinking deep into the vanilla twilight.

:/ Yeah, i know studies are REALLY important and i'm SO worried about them but i miss spending the time with you, talking, laughing, smiling.
I love how sometimes i can feel you smiling when we kiss. :)
And how your hands slot perfectly into place with mine.

You can do anything if you think outside the box.

Being respectful is hard to do when it means doing nothing. - Icanread.tumblr.com

It's sad when people you know become you people knew.
You can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, you used to be able to talk to for hours and now you barely even acknowledge.

Whenever i'm happy your there or nearby, that's gotta mean something great right? :)

Plans, plots and fails.

Ok, so today was a good day, well on the scale of things it was the worst day so far.
We had our reports and mine came to be a real shock BUT alot of the grades were based on our mocks and tbh i didn't revise much due to to coursework etc and i now have a plan to get my life back on track, (i got mainly B' and C's (N)) but I have a plan and if i stick at it i know i'll be able to get the A's i can achieve. I mean, this has been stressing me out for ages but today i let it out and just burst out crying but i know can get on top of things if i try! So, bring on the hard work and good grades, i'm ready to get stuck in! I have already proved this theory in english, in english last year i was talking and got B's and this year i havn't talked and i have been putting a lot of effort in, on my report i got 3 A's so it just shows what i can do if i want something that much. :) Also in terms of practicing wise it sucked we asked Tom, Danny and Hannah if they could come and listen to our 'I sing of a maiden' in front of girls we are fine and rather good if i do say so myself but in front of 2 guys (one of whom is he person i want to impress and seem good in front of),awkardly after alot of crying, me shaking and being very nervous we failed miserably, so if we practice more in front of people and such we should get better!
S. On a low yet high note. :)

-I just love it when you have a plan and you KNOW i'll work.

GOD, i'm so stressed atm,reading this helped.


'It’s not that I’m happy, because trust me, I wouldn’t call this happy, It’s just that i get annoyed when you worry. Because I think we both know that your too good for me, so when your annoyed with me, it’s a waste of time. You can tell me that it isn’t, adn that you care, but deep down, I will still always worry about it.Thats why I haven’t told you abotu it all yet, how much I don’t like where I am in life, but how afraid of the change I am going to take. How stressed I am, my parents think i’m into something, I barely speak, there are no words to leave these lips that could reassure them. It’s not that i’m happy, it’s because I love you. I want you to be happy, screw me, it’s you. Yer, the tunnel is dak, but the light is brighter. So by keeping it in, tellign you i’m fine, seeing you happy, I become elated. And happiness takes over. I would call it balance.
'
This is a piece by Holly and i LOVE it.

Heres a few awesome things i just LOVE.

Peeling the plastic off a new ipod or mobile or anything generally with a screen it's SO satisfying.
Realising your first love, that's just fabulous.
When you've done something MLIA worthy.
When your complimented.
When you've watched a realy good film with a bestie or boyfriend.
When you've finally completed something well after hours of annoyance.
Remeber the theme tune to your favourite childhood programmes.
Finding things that you havn't seen for years!
eing the first one in th batle to reachthe crunchisleaf on the pavement an feeling a sense of achievement.
Car journeys in the dark.
Happy strangers.
Not having to stop for traffic lights when approaching the road when walking.
Awkward silences, sometimes there just neccessary and i love the jokes that often break them, there'd be no well timed jokes without the awkwardness.
Relising that a picture is just about to be taken and jumping in front/in the background and smiling/posing cheesily.
Google mystery.
When you turn on you phone after a day of no battery or no signal and realise you have texts waiting.
The fablous feeling of waking up early on a schoolday seeing a very rare fall of crisp snow and almost screaming with joy!
Overplaying your new found favourite song.
When you burst into hysterics and can't stop laughing and then laugh at thefact you can't remeber what your laughing at, and one person joins the convo when your in hysterics and you just look at the other person laughing and laugh harder!
Jumping a lot of steps in one single bound.
Laughng to yourself.
I always get satisfaction out of the noise of emptying the recycle bin on my computer.
When you try to sleep and the air around you is crisp and you wrap up warm the same with weather.
When someone says bless you after a sneeze.
Jumping into freezing cold water.
Yawning - Satisfying. :)
Getting a piece of paper in the bin, makes the feeling of fail become cool and you can't wait to fail again!
The all round awkwardness of Amble scramble.
Finding the end of the sellotape roll.
Getting a phonecall from a close friend or someone you've just been thinking about.
Texting without looking.
Picking dried PVA off your fingers.
Stupid, pointless facts that everyone deserves to know!
Handmade forts!
Playfights with siblings.
Bubble wrap, do i need to explain?
When you get the answers right on who wants to be a millionaire/University challenge.
Silence and thinking time.
Welcome to The cooool side of the pillow.
The five second rule!
Getting carried theres the increased visibility and the weight off your feet! Piggy backing!!!
High fives and hugs.
Etc, i may post a 'what i love' quote every day. :)
S.

It fills the sails of boats that are waiting, waiting to sail your worries away

title? Hushabye mountain.
So, last night was TRULY AMAZING!! The girls all looked gorgeous! Lucy looked AMAZING! The boys scrubbed up well, Tom looked fabulous!! Tres handsome ;) haha.
We had an hour and a half to get ready, my necklace broke but we managed to fix it thank god!! :) Fab time at hannahs. :) Just wow! I bought a dress yesterday. :F And some gorgeous killer heels haha, my feet are killing me now though i'm telling you.
But i think it was a tremendous success i loved it! I didn't want it to end, had the best time! Dancing, friends, music, Tom an amazing night all round and dressing up made me feel all that more special even if i did look a bit dodgy lets say. HAHA. :)
It was great though! Thanks Lucy for a fabulous night honey. :)
So we got to sleep at about 3 andthen me and Hannah woke up at half 9 with maddy folloing at 9.50/55 haha. :) We had breakfast then at half ten i got dropped back home and i started on my art straight away and then tidied up and washed up the little washing up there was then i had a lovely relaxing bath! Then back to art then Tom came rund at about 5 and then he left at 13 minutes past 8 when the bus was at quarter past haha! Whoops. :S :L but he got a lift so it's fine! Maddy and our eyelash/bus stop scenarios! Haha.
Now i'm alternating between MSN, art and textiles. :)
S. Pearls, Lace and dancing in killer heels shal put some pictures up! :) Hopefully there not awful havn't looked yet!

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle.

Title? Missy higgins - scar.
I found this poem and i wanted to share it;

For winter`s rains and ruins are over,
and all the seasons of snows and sins;
the day dividing lover and lover,
the light that loses, the night that wins;
and time remembered is grief forgotten,
and frost are slain and flowers begotten,
and in green underwood and cover
blossom by blossom the spring begins...
plesure, with pain for leaven;
summer, with flowers that fell;
remembrance fallen from heaven,
and madness risen from hell

S. rememberance day, poppies and hundertwasser.

from Atalanta in Calydon by Algernon Charles Swinburne

and i'll be there just helping you out, whenever i can.

i'm sorry.

CHIN MUSIC?

That's right i saw a blog talking seriously about 'Chin music' i now have a new ambition in life... here is a quote..
'Please join us for the next evening of Chin Music'
'Other writers to be featured in Chin Music this season include'
I man wth seriously! But yeah, if i ever need anything to fall back on i have my chin music! I could make a living out of it with my chin!
That is all.

I sing of a maiden...

So, where to start... ok at the begginnning that would be a very good place to start. :)
So, saturday was cool, i revised, and then at about half 6 Tom picked me up and wewent to this firework party 'Yer tis' haha! And we stayed there for a while, was quite hilarious! And we hada few drinks, had a pasty and watched the bonfire and fireworks. Then Sunday was nice. :) I spent the day with Tom at his nans. :) We went for a walk with the dogs, i was realy nice :) had a lovely meal! It was deeeelicious i am telling you! Then we went back to his after almost getting kicked in the face by the horses... haha. His family are lovely. We got back and watched Twilight haha. :) I love it! Can't wait til new moon. Neither can Tom. ;)
So have had 5 exams so far and many more to come, it feels like fridayyy. :/ so, yesterday we had English and sociology, i wrote 11 pages for english and 9 for sociology so hopefully some of it makes sense... then today i had one of my french papers, R.E and Biology. R.E went well hopefully, again, 9 pages, Bio was not in the best of moods had a lot on my mind but hopefully (yn) and French, everyone found it hard except me so i'm now expecting a fail. :/ I am really quite worried about my grades maths mostly as i need a C to do A levels and i'm currently on a D foundation but nowi' concentrating and hopefully i'll be getting a C in my next paper as it is worth 45% of the grade. I do NOT want to be doing level 2 courses just because of maths! :/
Carys sent me a letter today. ;) I was pretty darn pleased! HAHA. WTH, seriously girl! I mean.. whoa!! Haha, frogs and let's not go into Brazil...
So, i went to this 'Petroc' evening last night, again they told us everything we know but i signed up for his thing about a magazine, photography, fashion design. sets, lighting, media etc it was only for parents but they said i may aswell put my name down and they'll get in touch. :) which is cool.
I have so much revision to do it's cold and dark although it's only quarter to 5. :/ Cup of tea me thinks. Tom, i love you.
And i should probs explain the title well me and Maddy were planning to sing this in the concert but we'll see how it goes with Mr Street because he is treating us like dirt atm so me Maddy Beth and Vicky have decided that until he lets Beth do her piano piece we're not going to senior choir, we're not rehearsing St Matthews passion for the christmas concert and there not running junior choir and were not doing our solo piece and so without that he doesn't really have much of a show, it sounds horrible but the way he spoke to us he deserves it 'twisting his words' god he's a spiteful litle man.
S. Exams, roundhouse horse kicking and Petroc...

Falling from grace with that look on your face, just misunderstood.

Hmm, just felt like writing this i guess? Obviously not my life, but the life of a fictional character. :)

The road ahead, empty and full of surprising twists and turns. One day, my life's amazing, times on your side, the next, your world comes crashing down, crushing your aspirations and all thoughts of normality. Your battling with yourself and your repetitive mind. Somethings triggered and the mask is put to one side and your fighting for the higher ground. Desperately trying to stay sane in the minority of one, against the rest of the world, of course with a little exception several glasses of red wine to help you think a little straighter. No one realises the emptiness carried within me, deep inside, I'm silently screaming out for help and no one can hear me I'm alone, yet unbroken, until I fall, further than before, i go slightly off course, a slip of the tongue and I'm taken back, into the pit of insanity, swimming in the overwhelming feeling of loneliness and the indescribable darkness it brings. Nothing the same as before, every things changed, your beliefs; contradicted, your friends; betrayed, your life? A continuous circle of madness and misunderstanding. But you fight, you fight to pull yourself out of reach from the depths, your on the brink and your unbroken until you put a foot wrong and uncontrollably slip over the edge once again, falling, always fighting, always just out of reach, when it pulls you back in, writhing and screaming. Your mind cartwheeling back and forth over the same things. Impractical and irrational, up until breaking point. Up until i can't take much more, the constant anticipation of the next experience, suppressing it. It folds and crumbles and then I fall away, into the dark, forever, and i'm safe and warm inside my mind. Inside that humid shell, away from humanity, sanity and the irrationality of my petty thoughts. Smiling as I sink into another highly diverse reality, where nothing can touch me, into a place where happiness lurks in every crevice of my head and darkness is non-existant where the distant sound of music lulls me into a deep, eternity of sleep and with love in close proximity, i fade and i'm cancelled out of existence within seconds. As if i was never here...



I feel this painting by Edvard Munch - The scream best describes the misunderstanding and obvious discomfort of this piece. It shows that the world surrounding him takes no notice of his insanity and fear and it's so obvious if people just looked and cared they would understand but instead they just look on, unknowingly.

Slightly depressing i know, but hey! It's late. :)
S.

Fireworks exploding in the night, red, blue, green, the sheer delight.

Title? Extract from a poem i wrote in year 5 haha.
So, tonight me and Tom went to a fireworks/bonfire party thing in South Molton haha. :) Was nice, thank you. :) Hand in hand staring into the glowing fire entranced by the debris slowly being devoured by the flames whilst the fireworks explode into the cloudless, starry night. The Macarena being played far behind us. Haha. :)
I have SO much coursework and revision to do, i'v done some more art, but i need to revise for the mocks. :/
Tonight was nice, even with inbredsand alcoholic 4 year olds... haha. :)
I love you. Btw, you havn't blogged in awhile so... get on that. ;)
Anyways, i'll hopefully see you tommorow. :)
My headphones have decided to stop working again and i have chocolate tiffins. :) Yum.
Goodnight. S. Pasties, fireworks and thought provoking ideas.

Truths the only key when your locked in a world of lies.

Title? Emma.
So,today was ok, an average day in th life of Sadie Fox i had an r twiight, and i have finalligured out what i'm going to do i nthe exam next week, which i'm happy with as i now have inspiration rather than pointles pictures and words. Nw its coming together and i'm happy about that. Math's.. now that' different stor, when i concentrate i'm on fire!totherie im just... ditractedas i find any opputunity not to work. :/ But yeah, :) going to Shapland with Tom tmo for bonfire night hopefully. :) can't wait. :)
Anyways, i'm kind of busy at the moment, so i'll get off now. :)
S. Free texts, 'Why so serious' and AO1.

'Its 'coz i love you <3'

Title? Tom. :) When i slept over the other night i had a shower and Tom made me tea, croissant, biscuits and of course, werthers orignals. Next to it was a note that read 'It's 'cos i love you :)' and brought it to me outside the bathroom! And it just makes me smile. That guy today who started randomly talking to us, he has a point, you treat me like a queen, you are so good to me and i don't know how to show my appreciation towards you. :) We always act so much differently in school compared to out of school, it's wierd huh? But, i guess it's normal. :) But yeah, so heres to you babe. We need to talk more too. :) I know were talking about how we don't like troubling each other with our issues and stuff, but i love you, and i'd rather know and listen and stuff two heads are better than one. :) 'Love is at the root of everything good that ever happened.' This is from the Blackberry advert, But it's true, if you have such a passion or love for something or someone, amazing things can happen.

I feel that atm i'm so obsessed and distracted with the future at the moment that i'm forgetting today and the fact that i need to secure today, to secure tommorow. I don't want to miss the wonerful moments that are here and now by looking farf ahead in the future, i mean yeah, of course we're looking to our future but i mean atm, it's all college, uni, careers, and i mean, this is our last year at school, these are some of the best years of our lives, and we're blowing that away by constantly living by tommorows expectations.
S. Tractor tread socks, Mr P, Mr P, Mr P, Mr P-laza and protease.

won't you take me to.... CHINATOWN.

So. :) It's the 2nd of November huh?
The day after Kaths much anticipated birthday. ;) HAHA.
you guys know what i'm saying. :) So halloween night was goood. :) The beach... (Y)haha, Smileys, me and Tim were just on the trampoline then HLy's which was fab then the GigTom was playing. :) Fab, especially in Paranoid. :) then back to HLys. :) It was FUN! Haha, me and HLy's spooning sesh, Beggon, Singstar, little OCD habits, gangster films and fun times. ;)
Last night was fab at Kath's birthday meal. :) I have the chopsticks as proof! Haha, now of COURSE we went to a Chinese restaurant it i after all, Kath.
Guess what i got her? A space hopper, a rubber duck, a glow in the dark rubber duck, a colour changing rubber duck and some celebrations. She better be amused a bathtimes/all the time with these... i will assure you, you will.... ¬¬ ;)
Yeah it was good! :) So iv got some pictures of half term. :) And the weekend me and Ash went to Exeter and wen i took pictures around here before Ben Ferne beach thing.
Anways, i'm off to do some art and stuff. :) i have SO much to do, so little inspiration...:/
S. Space hoppers, Noodles, and oodles of Art.

(P.s a few pics of t Matthew Passion too.)

It wasa blind winter night when she headed off written on her head was failure to conform..

So, one big thing i forgot, Exeter. :F The reason for the Star Wars tee which i am proud of (talking of tee, i'm just going to go and make one, i shall return) and my red/pinky/orangey beret which i LOVE. :) and apparently Tom did text me my phones just being a bitch along with MSN and what appears to be my only communication with the outside world or anyone who isn't within shouting distance. (Which atm sadly is noone) And now my keyboard is screwing up. (computer)
So, i guess I'm not good with electical stuff i mean my phone, my computer keyboard, my musical keyboard, msn, my ipod, my camera... GEEZ serously, sort yourself out. I'm home alone with werthers originals trying to think of what i am gonna do on halloween, because Maddy (if you happen to read this) you can stay round tmo night and it's either someone (anyone)stays round and we attend one of the many events we've been invited to (or several if we're skilled) or i'ma go up to Totnes on the train and spend halloween mit miener bruter (brother),vater und step mutter. :) So, it's a win - win situation whatever i decide to do as i have many options but penultimately i want to work (coursework)/revise and spend time with family if i'm honest, so we'll see how it goes. :)
S, Malfunctions, sweet treats and my fair share of 'The Doctor'. :)

Papa-paparazzi...

This has been the soundtrack of my stay at Maddys. :)
So yeah, obv feeling better.:) we made brownies, did ALOT of art from 10.45 until 3 in the morning.. :S lets just say the 'muse' was flowing, and no Archie, not the band. :F
Yeah, it's been good, except a few minor (well...) issues, but they're sorted now. :)
anyways, i feel like a bit of a geek. In a good way of course. :) Why i hear you cry, because I'm watching Dr who not just Dr who, i'm watching it on Iplayer whilst wearing a Star Wars t-shirt after some revision after Maddy's house. :) I feel fulfilled. Anyways, if i'm not pre-occupied and your lucky maybe another blog in a bit. If anyone actually reads these... :S I was hoping in seeing Tom earlier but he doesn't seem to be replying so... kinda sucks. :/ My phone isn't sending texts either though. :/
Maddy. :) I love you. :) You are fabulous and i can't believe it's been 5 years. I am so comfortable around you, and though i hate to admit it (:F) your marvellous. :D
S, Gaga, Gaudi and Gallons of paint. :)Oh and not to mention moaning turtles, Hayley and rick rolling. ;)

...

So, apparently i'm ill. (Y)
Been feeling tres ill since last night was sick twice but i'm feeling kinda better now but TOM GET WELL SOON. :) I miss you.
So much for going to Maddys tonight. :/ I'm really annoyed about this as it would have been good. :/
Anyways, i'm watching FlashForward and i know my priorities. :)
Oh and btw i'v restarted my diary/big black book which i started in April as i prefer having something physical to hold. :)
S. Stomach bugs, flash forwards and failed plans. (Y)

See the lights above you glowing and breathe it deep into your lungs

Title? Missy Higgins - steer. <3
So, today apparently not going to Maddy's today. :/ instead me and Ash are going round tommorow night which should be good. :)
So, been listening to Missy Higgins alot recently. :) (L) I'm doing some art prep on Hundertwasser but sem to be forgetting about Antoni Gaudi... which kinda sucks. If anyone has any ideas, that would be nice PLEASE let me know, as i don't have much time, i have a few ideas but i need to purchase some stuff for them. :)
I feel slightly sick, and my keyboard is not working for some reason and i'v forgotten howto re-string my elec. guitar which is annoying as i feel very 'musical' today so i can only sing...
I have decided to redo myenglish original writing as i really don't like it and piece by piece i'm ging to re-do my English coursework to get higher grades as i only have B's but I'm glad i have A's for my oral assessments. :)
I'm also doing ALOT of art prep and finishing coursework but i forgot my self portrait work from my folder which i was going to go over... (N)
I'v just remeberd the French song aswell haha. I'll be learning that some more too. Haha, and i forgot to pick up my textiles folder which is NOT helpful! But i have ALOT of revision/coursework to get done this half term and then the gig or Jesse's party to go to on Halloween and then Kath's birthday meal on Sunday night. :) I can't wait. :) and Tim's supposed to be having his sleepover so we'll see if that happens. :) I texted Jack Sparrow (aka Hannah) last night as she is in Italy due to a guitar thing with a few others and she's having fun haha but she took her art prep with her which is annoying but hey! You gotta do what you gotta do haha. Me and dad were planning on taking some photos for my art prep on natural forms and architecture and stuff but the weather isn't looking too good but we'll see what happens. :)I got a letter about my late returned library books. :S Whoops but i'll go give them back today haha. :)
We're appplying for college in one/two weeks now which i find quite scary tbh. I mean, COLLEGE seriously! I still feel like i depend alot on the school and the system there as in the pre planned timetables and planned out days whereas at college it'll be so much more independent. Well life goes on. :) I can't wait to get away from the minority of stuid, bland people so... :)
May blog later.
S. Revision, coursework and half term plans. :)

Buggershoes...

Title? An un-allowed quote from the most infamous Toby. Haha.
So, tommorow is the first official day of half term. :) So, this weekends been fabulous i must say. :) 'I know right?' :F
So, Friday night i went round to Tom's and slept round, we played alot of xbox (rock band) and sadly, Tom never did get to teach me how to play Halo haha, we also watched a lot of films/TV includng monsters inc and we watched QI with Stephen Fry. (L) Then the following morning played Wii for a while before heading into town for Matt's birthday pizza hutting i feel i should kinda dedicate this blog to him and Tom just because i have spent the whole weekend with him. :) and then after pizza hut with our very mature hats and a failsome ice cream factory experience and some very attractive photographs we went to the park for awhile then me Tom and Nickie went back Tims to watch 'Saving private Ryan' and for someone who doesn't like war films i did enjoy that, sadly Nickie and Tim wern't really concentrating on that though. :F And then me and Tom ended up staying over... It was good. :)
Then i got A lift home with Tom and gt back at 12 did some art homework and had to help look after Toby and Ava as dad had a bad back and Ellie had gone to hospital as she broke her arm. We went to Wetherspoon which was nice except Toby was acting up.
Then i came back and i'm still doing art prep for the mock exam after half term. I still havn't purchased a black dress for Lucy's party... :S i'll sort it out. :)
S. Chicken, sleepovers and Hundertwasser.
P.S i have quite a few ideas for photo shoots it's just getting the locayions, the props and borrowing fathers equipment. So fingers crossed it should happen. :) And i'm currently (well, editing this post at 21.04) learning this French song called Ta Douleur - Camille as i want a solo part in the christmas concert or the centinary show or whichever one it is haha, but yeah. :) It's a bit random but fun all the same. :)

And i think to myself, what a wonderful world.

So, this week appears to be dragging a fair amount but hey!! Half term next week and non uniform, me and Hly are still debating on whether to go to school on friday as Bella and Hermione and have an epic showdown wearing t-shirts saying 'Bite me' and 'I (L) the chosen one' HAHA or wheres Waldo an his dog, pacman and Ghosts, Mario and Wario/luigi or Rock paper ad scissors!! Epic showdown!!HAHA. :) We also want to get loads of our year to dress up as people from Grease and sing summer lovin' in the chritmas concert.... SKILL. HAHA. :) I love school for this reason! But then i can't wait for college! The other day i had the idea that on the last day of school we could dress up as the good and bad characters from narnia (with someoe as a wardrobe) and have a fight on the astro... FOR NARNIA. HAHAHA. God, i love life. :)
I have learnt i can not learn the words to french songs... at all.
But last night was fun! Tom turned up unexpectedly at my door with a cardboard chefs hat on shouting 'Chippy chips' or whatever he was saying then later on decided to remove the hat that he previously put on my bunny rabbit and replace it with his chefs hat haha!!! Best Boyfriend ever, he's going places i'm telling you! I seem to be obsessed with Mango atm, i have mango body butter, moisturiser, soap, lip butter and spray. And i am so pleased that i found my gameboy advance, pokemon games, knitted mittens my grandma made in pink rabbits, frogs (stereotypically green of course) and mice. My grandma is AWESOME, i also found the DVD of me singing as Alice in Alice in wonderland the musical in year 6 along with many classmates of mine... AHA, epic embarrassment win! :D As soon as possible i plan on plstering this all over youtube. :)
I'm out for now, Pokemon, 90's kid and WAIT i swear i'v written about this...?

'I wish i had indents in my chest so we would slot together like a puzzle...'

:) I love you Tom, and i am here if you ever want to talk or anything, and i'll be here for you no matter what.
You mean the world to me you know, everything, thanks.
S. Love, Kisses and yellow cars...

Sind Blitze sind Donner in volken ver schwunden.

So, it's been awhile but... Last night was St Matthew Passion the performance at the cathedral. I am telling you, it was AMAZING. :) Such a thrill and a priveledge to be in something like that... it's amazing! But yeah, it was soo good and after the rehersal headed to Mcd's and M&S for percy pigs and juice. :) Chicken sack wraps are srprisingly good for Mcd's food. Haha. But we wee so drained this morning! Me and Maddy got up at 10 had a shower, burnt the hot cross buns, had hot cocolate in a cafe and then headed to school at lunch haha. It's a long story... but yeah. :)
Anyways, i really don't have time to blog, well, i just cba. :)
S. German Choral, Hot chocolate and Miss Markham.. HAHA M know what i'm saying. ;)
x

He who foresees calamity experiences it twice.

A quote from 'Flash Forward'
Don't you just LOVE it when you don't thnk your tired, your head touches the pillow and your asleep? Anyways, recently i've been feeling really tired i dunno why that is? but yeah. So, this moning woke up at 10 and some Jehovas witnesses knocked n the door and gave me some magazines! :| Scared much? Then i had to get down to the post ofice to get my parcel. So i got dow there at 11.45 (bearing in mind it shuts at 12) asked if i could have it, and she said i needed ID. So i had to go home and get some which was TRES annoying but yeah. But that was probably the most interesting thing that happened to me today. Haha. So i was meant to be going out, then didn't etc etc. But i watched 'Flash Forward' and it was SO goood. :) Seriously,tanks Hly for remindng me. ;) I watched Emma aswell the other day which i must say is FABULOUS, i need to read the book! But yeah, Oh and i also found out that i can't go and stay with Alice in Yorkshire which is annoying. And i think i'm getting fatter... which isn't so good!
S. The future, Monster Munch and College Humour.

The subtle calm of headphone silence.

So, I'm restless, bored, tired, and all round odd. I can't keep still for Christ's sake. And I've set my alarm for half 9 tmo so i can get up fresh and early. I think i may try and go to sleep in a minute, i just felt like i had to blog just to relax a bit more and get my thoughts flowing even though I'm not spilling them into here, I'll be spilling them no my black book. Yes, I've resorted back to my big black book again. To spill and convert my thoughts onto paper to r-read and reminisce.
Thats it for tonight.
S. Texts, The 'Tube and twinkles.

just lay it all down, put your face to my neck and let it all fall out.

Title? Missy Higgins - Nightminds. I am literally intrigued by her atm, she is such raw talent (in my opinion) and she has such great lyrics.

Just a little rant. Doesn't it just annoy you when ignorant, naive people are quite often a big deal.. i mean, why can't people just slow down and sort out they're priorities, school, real friends, trying to make something of your life instead of dropping people whenever you've moved on and wasting time trying to be more and more popular each day,settle i wit a nice group of people you feel comfortable with and make other friends but don't constantly drop people for someone 'cooler'. I just makes me angry why people can't see though this, the fact that this person is only looking our for themselves, and how they will be nowhere in 5 years and in 20 years they'll be stuck in a dead end job with a second best life because of the way they've acted throughout their life and how people will realise this and just wont bother. Ignorance is not knowledge or bliss. Just, get over yourself. It'll will be better for some people in the long run. :)
Back to the blog. :)
Today has been FAB, English was fab! And maths was bearable. Then we had our... God I've forgotten the word!! Basically the second to last rehearsal for St Matthews Passion on Thursday! I can't wait. :) And then after that we had house matches! Netball, so i now LOVE netball!! :) And I'm not THAT bad at it i guess. :S But i'm not good at it either... then it started to rain, walked home with Tom which was enjoyable, i miss him epecially much tonight for some reason? Maybe it's 'cos i'm feeling kind of relaxed but kind of on edge? But yeah, Dad and Ellie are back together which is good, lng sstory it wasn't anyones fault they broke up and they both knew it was a mistake so.. yeah. :) Thats good at least! I have a cld cup if tea an a half eaten bowl of weetabix next to me as i had hot milk and weetabix as it reminds me of when i was younger. So i boiled some milk on the hob and realised that i had made too much, bu only when i had alreadu put it in the bowl, so i had to equalise the ratio of milk:weetabix y adding 5 weetabix... :| just a little advice to anyone who is thinking of doing so: DON'T! 'Co 'It makes me QUEEEEEASAY! It makes me Queasayyyy, you got a face like a gecko...' etc HAHA! You know what i'm talking about Tom... Haha. :D
S. Geckos, weetabix and Ambrosia.

Relax, Relax, excel and breathe you are my gravity...

Title? Tired and Uninspired - My American Heart.
I realised it's slowly turning from warm summer days to crisp, cold winters mornings, it was bitterly cold this morning as i stepped out of my house, without a scarf (as school doesn't permit it, along with coloured socks although i was layered up with a cardigan and coat.) And i realised how i love winter/autumn! Seeing your breath in the air, wrapping up warm, having an excuse to wear mittens and a thermos of tea/hot chocolate. FAB! :) But winter clothing always bothers me, as i never have the right stuff, or it doesn't go together and by the time i'v actually bothered to buy it the years gne full circle and it's summer again...

...Back from another fabulous night with my more than fabulous BoyFriend/BestFriend. :)
As usual another enjoyable night was had by all. :) It was his mums birthday, so we had chinese. ;) For the first time in my life!! I feel so comfortable there, and as we headed through the shadow filled, cloudless night, i gazed at the stars thinking about how lucky i am. Truly lucky to have such a guy. Such a guy with the most MARVELLLOUS shoes i must say! :) But really. You are the best. :)
I love you. I say it too much, but it never loses any meaning each time just gains it. :)
The moon is tres odd tonight as well? Odd colour, seems realy big and stuff. Hmm, and btw Kath if you ever possibly read this, get well soon you pig loving asian. :)
S. Stars, scarves and egg allergys.

These hands will not be taught to hold anothers, we're the special two.

Missy Higgins - special two. I LOVE Missy Higgins atm.
Tonight was fabulous, i love spending time with Tom, it just makes me feel so, apprciated? Happy, makes me realise again, how amazing he is. He makes me feel warm and happy inside, thank you, for being you, i know i talk about him alot, but it's because he is a big part of my life, i don't care if i sound kinda... wierd it's true. Everytime i'm with him, i never want to let go. When we have to go, i hate it, i miss him when i turn away to leave. Is that wierd? Well anyway, thanks for a fab night, i love you.
S. Youtube, Textless Phones and birthdays...

I like your face, it's so nice to look at...

Title? A quote from Tom today whilst we were standing in the square. Haha, i take this as a compliment of course haha. :) Isn't it funny how you become so much closer to a person and understand them better when you've had an argument? It's because you don't seem to properly appreciate them until there so close to slipping away from you? I find this an odd conception.
I'v just remembered i said i'd do a weekly WTF thing? Well i kind of forgot, so this weeks is a quote from Mrs Aliberti to accompany her chair thrusts and hungry trousers.. 'God, have a little respect for the FOREST will you!?' This was a hilarious moment in French lesson today. I explained to Alex, Conor, Beth, Katy, John and several others about Mrs odd chair thrusting, hungr trousers incidents OH and of course her 'Technicolour dreamcoat' as we like to call it ay? ;) HAHA. Too bad tday she was wearing a skirt... haha, well, i guess it's better for all of us! But not the same 'lesbian clothes' HAHA, it's always the quiet ones!! :) Amazing! HAHA, you are funny kids...
Me and Tom and our little 'romantic' scene in the rain haha, I LOOK SO UNNATRACTIVE IN THE RAIN i really do, i mean, unnatractive!
But anyways, love youuuu. And the online community (as i like to call them) OH and if your reading (HLy/Beth) HALLO SEXY LADIES. :F ;)
S. KitKat's, Biology tests and kisses in the rain.. :F

Jealousy, Fact or fallacy?

Hey... again. I can't concentrate as in REALLY cannot concentrate. I'm in one of those restless moods, and i keep thinking about stuff, and was thinking, paranoia, don't you hate it? Jealousy and paranoia, the thing is, no matter how much you try and ignore it, it's physically not possible. All those niggling little doubts which every now and then people top up for you, unintentionally most of the time but.. Just thought i'd say, lot on my mind atm. Whenever things are going right, do you ever feel like something has to go wrong soon? And that your luck will run out, in whatever kind of way,family, friends etc. Clinging to paranoia. Oh well, coursework calls...
S.

How comforting the privacy of the mind can be.

Title? Eve 6 - How much longer. A song just linked to me by Tom, i likeee. :) I liked these lyrics although in the song it comes across as 'Sickening' the privacy of te mind but i prefer the more optimistic view on it.
Today the school day was not a nice one particularly, i was just in a wierd mood. But after school was good, me, Maddy, Beth, Kath, HLy, Bex and Katy headed off to Costa as we're cool as me M and Brown had some time to waste before St Matty Ps which was at school today at 5.15 until 7. So we had a few hilarious chats, especially me HLy and Brown. 'Hallo sexy lady/ies' HAHA. goodtimes... and in Costa we purchased hot chocolates (which the marshmallows got stolen off of), then when everybody had dispersed me, M and BB still had 3/4's of an hour to spare so... after staying in Costa for another half hour we headed to Iceland and bought some fatty food. :) Good times! We then headed towards the grass near he library, sat by the wall and talked and ate. :) I love you guys. Then came the dreaded rehearsal... It was ok but... seriously it's next Thurs the rehearsal!! Hannah's missed allot though. :S (N)

Just a few thoughts, Love is so fulfilling, it's the best feeling anyone could EVER have, but when it's over, the lonliest and most painful feeling possible, dad was explaining why him and Ellie broke up and he is NOT happy. :/

CBA to blog now, i have Chem, Bio and Maths to do so CIAO.
S. Vimto, boxes of raisins and music scores.

Be careful what you wish for 'cos you just might get it.

Title? Mayday parade - When i grow up (cover)
So... Had a great time with Tom, embarassed myelf a few times as usual, subway, generally, you kno the drill. I miss him. I hav jut completed my French homework after asking Nickie several hundre times as i had written a TRES vague description... Yes Nickie, she truly MURDERS the language but hey. Stephen Fry is AMAZING. :) I mean, what a fab guy! And George Orwell amazing writer but complete hipocrite, i'm not going into it again, just ask Kath haha, i explained it enough to her! HAHA. I love musicnd Books, the river, Tom and having the time to relax instead of constantly thinking about c/w or homework or grades or exams etc.
Anyways, just a quick update, St Matty P's tmo, i have been practicing on cyberbass... ;) I'm now off to relax with a nice cup of tea, my Ipod and my nice, warm, double duvet'd bed!
Goodnight i'll leave you with a few quick thoughts... Pokemon, Stephen Fry, ear stretches and SubWay. :D I LOVE YOU TOM. Even if your old phones don't text!
S.

Medium Vanilla Frescato..

So, today's been kinda the opposite to pro-active (N) as i'm kinda supposed to ursework and stuff, but i must say i am revising! :) But yeah , went out with dad earlier as we hrdly hang out anymore, so we went to Costa (hense the title) and yeah, it was good, we had a chat and stuff. I need some superglue. I took a few picturs and dad has just given me an entry form for the Photography competition entitled 'My Barnstaple' for under 16's and the winner gets a digital camera amongst other stuff, which is good because as we all know my camera has broken! (N)
Tom should be getting back soon :) so we are going to go out i think. :)
Oh, i looked for a black dress with Maddy yesterday and found one i like but i'm not too sure about it but i think thats probably the one i'm going with... unless of course Maddy buys it... (N)
I'm currenty on youtube and hae just recieved an email from Pennie and i'm kinda confused as to what 'Morning time tbc' is... :S anyone have any ideas?
Can't wait though for St Matty P's. :) Except for the facti really do have a cold! And it's not attractive and i can't talk properly now. :@
Anyways, coursework calls. :/ So, speak later guyssss. :)
Cotton wool, mathematics sets and cheesestring. ;)
S.

My Heart WILL wait for You...

Title? A song i was listening to in the car on the way back into Barnstaple which i love and found very relevant, alot of songs make me think when i'm in an odd mood?

I have a cold,a sore throat, i miss Tom, i can't find the right coloured nail varnish, my light still doesn't work, i have homework (and housework) to do tommorow, i can't text, it's way too hot, i'v been so bored and my laptop and phone are being stupid tonight. Various keys (well all of them)are jumbled up and such, i think I'm cursed with technology so no grammar tonight (Ok, well that was a lie as it's fixed now due to my skill.) So, been in an odd mood this weekend i mean i really don't know whats going on atm in general, i was in such a bad mood Friday up until i went to Maddy's it all seemed fine until i was on my own or we were trying to go to sleep or whatever id just keep thinking about it but we had a good night and this morning was good too. I'm glad we were texting and stuff or else we would have just left it me and Maddy went to the market i bought some vinyl records :) which are good and in mint condition (Y) skilled pick by me, then i had a really good rest of the day too :) it was nice, it really was fab, just what i needed tbh. I definitely take what we have together for granted i don't like that, not at all but at least we have passion in the relationship, and actually care enough to mention it instead of just being together for the hell of it you know. But he makes me smile, CONSTANTLY, i love him and i wish he knew how much. I have just sorted out the grammar/caps lock problem!! :)(but to be quite honest i can't be bothered to correct the rest of it. :F) (Ok, thats another lie, as i did, most of it anyways) i can't be bothered with blogging in general atm, I'd rather be spending my time in more pro-active/fulfilling ways i.e Work or Tom or just relaxing instead of blogging, especially when i have nothing of importance to say, i just waned to write this, even if i don't post it, i need to just write it down, I'll probs edit if I'm posting...?
Sadie, Percy Pigs, Plum Jam and PG Tips.
P.S 3 bean wraps, Percy piglets and cloudy lemonade from M&S are amazing btw, definitely cheers you up. :) Our little picnic earlier was fabulous! :) and I've realised why we think and say the same things... it's because the phone greets me with 'Hi Tom :)' every time i turn it on, so i think my brain has re-programmed perhaps? And before you go, listen to Mayday Parade - When i grow up, i am now addicted to it (Tom, i owe that to you thanks! :F) I am publishing now. :)

TITTYLICKINGFUN.

LOL! This is todays blog. You may think the title is odd, but it stared from a conversation about various things… so we carried it n and it was HILARIOUS i swear i almost wet myself… Maddy, legend. Haha. You say PENIS, i say TITTIES, PENIS has titties it's a titty licking fetish.

But yeah, todays been alright! St Matty P today period 6 i had art which i’v found out i got a B so far and thats without her having marked my two sketchbooks which are continuous A*’s so i’m hoping for a FAB grade! Haha. Afer shool and our amusing walk to te bus station with Maddy i had to go to Braunton AGAIN because miranda hadn’t posted the thing from work exp so i went to get it and Maddy went to Fremingon for hers. :F It was gooood. I had an odd lunch too full of random convo’s and groping… LOL. P.S.E was a fail as usual and we had to write the exact same information for about the 5th time on a different form in a different format! So tedious but had a FABULOUS English lesson complete with over dramaticness on my behalf and cardboard Lightsworbers (provided by me) for our remake of act 3 scene 1 of Romeo and Juliet, where Mercutio dies of course I was Mercutio Me being the dramatic actress and all… well… Haha. It was goood, sound effects and all! We got out done by the guys with ray guns though! But our acting was better so it doesn’t matter… :F it was sooo fun though! Speaking of that Ash (Tybalt, who i fought with in the play as just logged in ) HAHA. I’m in such a good mood today, i may blog more relevantly later.

S.

Ave Maria! Jungfrau mild, Erhöre einer Jungfrau Flehen...

The first two lines to one of my many German classical anthems at the moment, this has been continuously in my head for 5 days! But i still love it! I can listen to it on repeat about 5 times and sing to it until i realise that it's on repeat...
Th english translation: 'Ave Maria! Maiden mild! Listen to a maiden's prayer...'
I feel so oldskool today! I mean seriously, i had those boxes of raisins have in primary school, i played 'Kats' cradle with mine and M's shoelaces AND me and Tom listened to all 3 of the PokeMon songs on his phone... Jealous much? Have been very healthy today up until about 7.30pm. :/ I hadn't had my chocolate fix!?
I have been in a really good week so far. :) i got my £2.50 in today for my progress file, i need to submit my art sketchbooks which will boost my art grades obv. Haha. :) CyberBass has become a strict regime now haha! St Matty P goers will know what i'm saying here. ;) Haha, it's actually quite useless and i can only sing along to the bits i already know as it's monotone or polyphonic or whatever... But anyways.:) I have a bit of easy English to do and i may do some myMaths revision/online homework ;) then i have to attempt to learn my lines for Romeo and Juliet in english for tommorow. :) I'm Mercutio and we're doing the scene where he dies, we have picked the most effective lines and i like it ;)
Whilst practicing today in the hall we got shouted out for being too loud inside by Miss Hall Tompkin, so we went just outside and got shouted out by some random teacher for being too loud so we went to the bt by the stairs which was fab and it was so funny, i was on the floor dead and Ollie (Romeo) comes along and says 'I am so high, my dik is so hard i just wanna fuck and steal, steal and...' and Mr awlingson walke round the corner gave him the wierdest look and walked away haha! It was funny, and Ash and her bloody thrusting!
ANYWAYS, just thought i'd say I'V REACHED THE HALFWAY POINT TO 100 BLOGS. :)
S.

Let us go singing as far as we go; the road will be less tedious

Title? A quote from Virgil Eclogues.
Bach and beach, basically, friday night’s beach trip could have gone SLIGHTLY better i think.. BIG misunderstandings but other than that was nice, except for the bare minimum of silly people... but anyway… I had a relaxing night, me and Tom had a nice chat whilst sat in the dunes surrounded by the grass, the sea, the sound of the waves and the wood smoke in the air. We walked down to the sea when it got dark with the subtle murmur of our friends behind and the glow of the fire backlighting us. We had the vast, intense black sea ahead of us with the gentle lapping of waves near our feet which seemed to chase us through the nigh. The shadow of the grass on the dunes swaying either side, and the appledore skyline just framing the night perfectly. It was a calm, crisp night. So, this week has been FAB so far. Yesterday (Monday 28th Sept.) I realised how the few pathetic, petty people are so small and insignificant in my life compared to everything else and so i have no reason to bother about them. I wish they’d see that too and realise i’m not important. As on the whole i don’t hate them it just annoys me they’re ‘breach of confidence’ or whatever you’d say as nothing you say to them will stay secret. Or whatever, i sound like a bitchy person but i’m not, it’s just recently… But anyways, so i’v realised that and i’v also realised that the most random people will come together and create a really happy, great group! and i’m glad i’ve seen that. Thanks. What topped off a great day was a hilarious trip to Maddy’s followed by a fabulous rock band game and cup of tea and biscuits. The man in the mini-bus though HAHA, what a bastard! Then followed by a FABULOUS singing session with Colin at West Buck, who is NO LONGER a figment of our imagination thank god haha. That was great except i now have a sore throat and several female upper sixth formers were glaring at us… But hey. And today has been a good day too. :) Had to go to Little Fishes in Braunton (work exp.)afterschool to get my lost forms resigned It was wierd being back! But in a good way, i only saw Luca though as the rest were outside, I missed the children, i mean, two weeks is a long time to bond with someone :/, before that i was with Tom until 4 which was fab! I havn't spoke to him properly since the beach. :/ But i do love you VERY much Tom! :) Sorry, i don’t have much time for blogging atm with coursework, reading and general life-living.

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I did have a few more but not enough credit to send 'em.
S.

Meh.

I'm sick and tired of people judging me and telling me i'm fake because of my bog. For christ sake, those people are the most pretentious people i know and try to prove theselves all he time it's like. God, i'm over it now, i'm myself and i don't give a shit what you thnk anymore as you will NOT get far with narrow mindedness and igorance, i just want a fresh, new atmosphere instead of petty nonsense which has NOTHING to do with them and doesn't effect them in any way. For christ sake, i'm not telling you to read it. If it's me writing it, and it's what i truly feel, it's not fake and theres no need for you to worry, seriously. If your prepared to show two different sides to you, can't you just let me show my two sides? I blog my feelings you blog yours. Thats why i'v decided to only blog the irrelevant general day to day things on here and i have my ideas, thoughts and feelings somewhere only certain people can read to stop pathetic, pretentious people judging me. Okay, i knwo i'moverreacting but i write this for myself and i want something less... personal i guess as in not for my friends for myself and for somewhere that noone will bother loking for my blog unless someone gave them reason to. :)
S.

If i stand so still, in a beautiful silence, i can watch the world go by

I find obsolete infinity intriguing. I love when I'm angry, depressed or happy to go walking, to get away but also, just to think. Preferably somewhere where i know no one, no one at all. I love to sit and watch the world all it's mannerisms, and the odd ways of nature whilst time flys by. As if I'm invisible and i can just observe, step back for a moment and just listen to the world. Or even down a busy street i love to blend in and just listen to the odd titbit's of conversation i hear when walking past people and i like to wonder what and who they might be. Where they're rushing off too. But, sitting there, by the river, surrounded by the wonderfully real silence of growing things and the ecosystem beneath me all cooperating, i like to just contemplate i feel like i actally mean something, i feel that i fit in out there, skimming pebbles and sitting by the wall, smiling to myself. I just like to think how truly beautiful, is the silence of growing things :)

Trust in your friends and they will have reason to trust in you.

Title? A line from cartoon Star Wars series i was watching with my brother. (Y)
So, today i am calmer and not in such a wierd mood. I dunno what that was all about... but anyways, it's 12.08 and i'm still in my pj's talking to Tim and Max on msn. :) Random chats ftw. Anyways, i'm feeling peckish and listening to James Horner the braveheart theme. It's good, bu i prefr the piano version, very repetitive especially when you don't realise that it's been on repeat or 4 times...
When i actually get up and stop lazing around. If i do something interesting, shall let you guys know. Btw, Me, Vicky, Hazel, Rheannah, Toby and Darcy had WAYYY too much fun last night after the fireworks playing ring a ring a rosies. (Y) Skill's, how i wish i could be young again. AHHH, now i remeber the point of this blog was for more fair pictures. (Y) and a few of the beach.















Me and HLy.
S.