'You keep my mind so occupied, In a busy yet beautiful way...'

Title: Summertime - Gabe Bondoc. (L) I'v fallen in love with this guy's musical and lyrical talent.

Generically Original.

Sorry this is just a quick rant then back to the blog, so if your in a good mood navigate away from this particular blog but if your in a spectacular mood, would you care to carry on reading?
So, everyones major goal these days to be 'oh so original', people who try they're very hardest to be original are the most generic of them all, well, in my eyes anyway. The originals are the silent types in the corner, full of compassion and burning desire, but who are too afraid to let it out. The generics are the ones who try sooo hard to be original that they lie to themselves and to others but unintentionally, they sit and think so hard for hours on end of what to write or say or how to act or whatever! Don't get me wrong, i know i'm not original, but i'm not trying, or worrying for that matter. I am who i am, i do what i want, i live how i want to live. You know? I just don't see why people get so worked up about it. Sorry just a recent think about several people who i know who overlook the truth and the real key to happiness sometimes. :)


Anyways, onto today's actual blog.
Today, i'v spoken to several people who i havn't in a while and i feel that i'm drifting an awful lot from some of the people who matter a great deal to me but who i didn't realise were particularly important. It's just I feel like i'm constantly in my own world at the moment. In my own world yet trying so hard to be a part of this world, i don't know what it is. It feel's like there's a layer of cling film between me and reality a hazy, thick fog sheilding me from the subsistent worries and burdens of normality. I seem to always just feel like being alone, taking photographs, reading or listening to music and it's wierd you know? I don't know exactly what it is, but i just seem extracted from everything at this present moment. I want to be isolated from everything but at the same time i also hate feelign this way and wish i could jus tget back into the swing of things. I feel like i'm missing out, and want desperately to get back quickly but i'm enjoying the bliss of being alone... Hmm, well i guess i'll need to sort this out somehow, sometime soon, but until then... I might have to write in a bit, just my feelings and everything in 'The big black book.' :)
Today i'v had a lazy day. Completely lazy. I mean, this wasn't the plan at all, i was planning on going to the beach (again) with the same company as i had yesterday and leaving early, so we had the whole day just to relax but... it kind of turned out differently... the exact opposite to be fair! I'm sitting here writing after a whole relaxing day of being in bed, reading, texting Tom :) (who is back today btw! waheyy) listening and downloading more music, listening to various original artists (which i got tipped off from by Aj Rafeals channel if i'm honest (; ) and just lounging about. Free to do what i liked and having the house more or less to myself all day. I Had Bill (the brother) here too, but to be honest he's not exactly going to change my judgement or what not. So yeah, i'v been playing music, eating food, (my favourite past time i have to admit) etc etc. Pretty cool.
May treat myself to abit of alone time with the Ipod in a bit, just for a walk in the last glimpses of the vanishing sunlight.
Hmm.. that's a thought, i'v just realised i have art holiday homework to complete... Meh i kind of cba to be frank but then again i'm feeling quite creative at the same time... well, we'll see what happens, but no promises! Carmex has been a big life saver recently it's been all i'v been wearing out which i'm quite proud of as i normally wear some skin make up aswell but i havn't really bothered recently. So when you see the pics from Westward Ho (which father is still not bothering to give to me in some shape or form) don't judge me! Because i am not wearing a great deal of fakery... and i look somewhat, terrible. :D ('Kay guys, forgive me but the pics are finally well and truly up!)
I love the feel of surf hair. Do you know what i mean? Not like a day after or whatever because obv you would shower (or in my case bath) the very same day but i mean, when your on the beach and you've just come out of the sea, or on the bus after a fab day out and your hair has dried into that 'au naturel' style of waves and curls with that slight messy look... well anyways i love that feeling! I don't quite know why? I thin it's just 'cos it reminds me of the day's events and what a contrast life at home is. It's just fab. Anyway i'm rambling as usual, but even just writing this has made me feel better. Thank you BlogSpot. (L)
Btw, check out PostSecret (should be somewhere to the left of you) every sunday as the 'postcards' left on there really make you feel lucky and appreciative to what you have and just because at least 1 of them each week i can relate to and i just love reading how people have over come something or what that little milestone in their life has been.
I have finally deleted Bebo guys! Theres the end of an era. Haha, it's not that i need it, it's just i'v had it so long! Awwwh well, i'm deffo glad it's gone! Facebook is the new black.
Hmm, 'kay guys, sausages, mash and a vanilla and blueberry tart later, i'v decided against the walk as it's now too late and i can't be arsed to be quite honest tommorow maybe? And Anyways, Father has just got back from the allotment with a film and some goodies. YAYYY. :D So, instead i think i may have to exit Msn and this lovely little blog of mine and go and appreciate those, i mean, i don't want to be disrespectful... (in other words i'm taking advantage of chocolate and such :D)
BTW, i have no such idea of whats going on tommorow now as i'm supposed to be heading off to Instow at two for a little 'social event' ;) but now i have no idea what's going on as i may have to go to Bill's for a few day's...total bummer. :/ I really cba tbh and i just want to go out and see everyone as i havn't in agesss. Well, if anyones kind enough to let me sleep round there house in such short notice then give me a buzz 'cos that's the only way i'll be coming haha... damn. :/ Meh, whatever happens happens, shall update tmo! :)
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Peace out Guys. :)
Sadie. x