They say that time heals all things, they say you can always forget; but the smile and the tears across the years they twist my heart-strings yet.

Title: A little extract of a song from the A-MAZING book that i can't seem to put down 1984.
So, i'v just made myself a cuppa as i'm not in the right mind set to sleep just yet, which is a real pity as we go back to school tommorow. Geez, i'm in two minds about it,i'm excited andanticpating seing everyone again, i love seeing how everyones change since last term, but i'm nervous about all the serious hardwork the exams and basically what tommorrow represents... Basilly the first day of the rest of my life. I mean, from now on every year counts, no more messing around, no more jokey lessons, from now on it's GCSE'S, A levels, AS Levels, Uni, and then the rst of my life. And i don't want it all to go to pot. I am so worried about failing or getting C's or whatever. I just don't want everything to go wrong just because i havn't paid attention. Geez, i'v been saying it for a long time now that i need to buckle down but now i have finally realsised it's finall clicked that this IS my life now, studies come before everything else i guess and christ that sounds scary. But yeah, i have some new trousers and after a long tme searchingi finalyaave a new pair of shoes from TopShop, the whole of Exeter had absolutely no T-bar shoes, i was SO dissapointed. So anyways, mum cae dow yesterday with Coles, we went up to Exeter in search for school shoes and a fun day out, we had neither of those. School shoe shopping gets tedious after 3 hours of it... But yeah, it was a nice day andi havn't seen mother in ages so that was nice. She gave me fifty pounds, £30 for shoes, £20 formyself toughwhih was good. :D
Wet into town withTom today to get some school shoes, we bought the first pair as i liked them :) and then we andered round for a bit went to see Katy then we went to Costa vanilla frescato's FTW paha. Then we talked for like 2-3 hours which was funny but was supposed to be tidying my room and doing coursework, i'v done my room but i have a bit of coursework to do but it's fine. I'v edited my wall again. :F It's pretty cool. That's what i'm gonna miss most about this holiday i think, besides the freedom an lack of school etc the fact that i wont spend as much time with Tom... damn it.
Also i seem to have lost ALL of my work exp. paperwork, so i'm really pissed off about that as i need it and it's not bloody here! Geez, i really don't know wht to do, Tom's gonna come over and 'help me look for it' i doubt he will bother though HAHA. He'l just come round, we'll talk and then it won't get found haha. Anyways i'm going to go ad read now and hopefully sleep sometime soon. Will tell you about the first day tommorow. :) Nightttt from your loyal prefect :F
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